Tuesday, December 19, 2006
hmm.. ll is going for operation tmr.. hope everything will be successful.. dunno why.. suppose to be gaming.. yet i feel tt so many things within me.. feeling so blue...(like the color of the font).. yet i cant pour it out like the rain outside now.. its raining heavily now.. as if helping me to clear abit or the burden within me.. hahaz... thx worhz rain.. hahaz.. hmm.. actually my mood is ok de lo.. juz tt dunno why.. think frens influence bahz.. one sianz everyone sianz.. then everytime someone sianz would be as if the whole grp or whole world fault like tt... yahz.. abit like me when im erupting the volcano within me.. hahaz.. trying hard not to make it happen again.. i swear.. (cross fingers)hahaz.. hmm... anyway.. juz wanna say out wad i feel then will feel better.. hahaz..i HATE WORKING!! lolx.. as in a situation whereby my precious fren is going under operation.. yet i got to work when everyone else is there supporting her.. i feel so bad.. cant accompany her.. and cant see her to give her encouragement before going for her operation.. sobb.. how can i do to make her feel better?? though ytd went to her hse, still can laugh and play around.. but within her shld be very scare and weak de lo.. she is tt type outside brave, inside afraid de lo... hmm.. now wad i can do is to help her pray le bahz.. and juz send her another sms tmr.. so saddening manz... i realli wanna wait outside the operation room... to see her peacefully come out then i will fang xin lo.. tmr gonna telephone her before 12 and after 1pm le.. if not i sure work also bu fang xin ahz... actually i tot of reaching the hospital abt the same time when she admit in at abt 9plus de.. yet they wanna meet at 10am.. wth.. i liberally tell them i 11 got w0rk.. but i will pon to 12pm.. then ask them to try to meet earlier... yet they still meet 10am.. nvm.. win le.. haiz.. nvm bahz.. hope ll wont mind i never go bahz.. will try to visit her when im free de.. but now she going her grandma hse to stay le.. wan to meet her also abit difficult liaoz...ok.. i dun think so much le.. the rain outside also stopped le.. guess its time for me to rest le.. bye all.. guess i shall change my blogskin soon.. to fit better in myself.. hahaz.. hope a new blogskin will give a new beginning.. to me.. and to everyone else...
End of my melody... @ 12:08 AM
