Sunday, September 24, 2006
hmm.. HAPPY 18th BDAE YT on 22nd sep... celebrated with her on 21st sep at fish and co... so fun.. den watch the haunted apartment.. wonder to be really terrify or be really funny.. lolx.. go watch if u all were amuse tt horror movie can be real funny too... hahaz..anyway.. sorry eh.. lazy to update wad happen tt day coz today dun have the mood to...hmm.. actually all was ok ahz.. morning chat with benjamin and wanqing on msn.. it seems like a thousand years ever since we last chatted... as in chat about how we are really doing in the past 1 or 2 years lo... oh gosh.. that was like so long.. hmm... chatted with them and suddenly feel relieve.. or mayb feel that im timid at certain ways or maybe many ways.. hahaz... and the past that i encounter suddenly flash back in my mind... hmm.. suddenly regretted some decisions that i made in the past.. but that's life... once u never grab the chance.. it will be gone forever.. there is only one chance for us.. and our decision must be wise.. if not tt's it.. regretting wad u have done after tt is no use anymore... thus must grab every opportunity bahz... once gone, its gone.. time will not wait for u.. life will still continue to move on... hmm.. anyway.. went for work after tt.. reach there... eat, chat with them... enjoyed myself really... without those colleagues at westmall sakae.. it will not be westmall sakae anymore.. hahaz.. and i wont be there even if the job is for human.. (ours is not for human de.. lolx..)hmm.. heard some complaint here and there.. i started work with a smiling face.. i ended work with a unsmiling face.. lolx... guess im too tired bahz... hasn't has enough sleep recently.. yahz.. dad and mum everyday ask me slp early.. but i reach home 12plus le... online a while then 1 plus 2plus le.. next day 8 plus wake.. haiz.. when there is a day i can slp longer, dad will ask me go office helped out... when will i be able to slp 24hours a day?? i wish tt day come soon... tired suddenly... dunno why... work is fun.. but not when the queue is 2 shop away from ours from 6-9pm... and the worse is that when nasty customers complain and complain.. food longer abit will die mehz... food sold out cant eat other food mehz... food not nice our fault mehz... food last day promotion cannot mehz... haiya.. no wonder ppl say WE are typical sINGAPOREANS... but guess im the MOST sui bian singaporean in the whole singapore liaoz.. at least i wont complain this and tt.. at most complain to my frens and family nia... hahz..dunno ahz.. today mood is from very good to good to ok to no good to no mood... aiyoh.. not i wan to say ahz... top more than 4 times de cups... i no blame them ahz... but at least zi dong abit ma... jitao left about 5 cups also nobody go take... i already take one or two round le lehz... i know its heavy lahz.. but i also yin yin take.. nvm lahz.. if i no take later also kanna manager diao.. everyone.. i ask u all ahz.. i really tt innocent mehz.. really that easy to bully mehz... why everyone say so lehz... im always smiling mehz... no right... i also got my moody times de mahz.. also will get angry de mahz.. how come sakae de ppl and poly de frens will think tt im the "always smiling" type lehz... haiz... though only sec sch frens have seen my happy, angry and sad side of me, but...sometimes dunno where shld i stand.. when can i really be my true self... hmm.. at home have to be a good daughter, good sister... trying to change my bad points so tt my dad wont always say tt my brain haven open... and be a good model in character and studies for my siblings... when with sec sch frens have to act as nothing happen like tt... though feel left out or not involved in them also must get involved like tt... and trying to change myself so tt wad happen in the past will not happen again...with poly frens lehz... have to act as if i can hang around with them de... even though they have their own partner in e class le... coz steffy change to TRM le ma.. now want see or chat with her also hard le.. she got her chuan le.. lOlx.. dun blame her also.. she got her on life also.. =)with working frens lehz.. work is work lo... recently got closer with some of them ahz.. but will tt last.. never know...with other frens who know me before or quite close to me before de lehz.. i feel bad coz it seems like when i got problems or wad den will find them like tt.. so i try not to bother lo... already cant cope with the above categories le still care for other ppl for wad.. lOlx...with cousins lehz... have to act quiet le lo.. to them im a quiet girl de ma... since young beri shy tt kind... and very daddy and mummy's girl... hahaz.. when will or when can i be myself lehz?? be happy and laugh out loud as i wish... be angry and scold wad ever i wan to...be sad and cry out to flood the whole building...be quiet when i wish to have tt few moments of personal space...be terrified and get someone to comfort me...be pamper as and when i wish to...be lame and make the whole world freeze...be siao ding dong and send me to mental hospital...be a wild girl who do anything as she wan...be a rich girl who wants to spend wad she like...be a carefree girl with no worries or problems...be gone peacefully with a nice coffin to sleep in.. muhahahaha...argggggggghhhhhhhhhhh...... can i find someone to fulfil all these with me?? hahz.. (guess will if im not so picky.. lOlx.. and if im more initiative.. hahaz.. chou benji kor.. say wad 21st century is girl chase boy.. i still living in 20th century can ma?? hahahaz... =P )'m jusŧ đόwи'm damи đόwи today...why aint these feelings go away... nevermind... everything will be fine after a good night sleep.. hahz... tmr a brand new day again... all these written today will be forgotten then.. YEAH!.. but lets wish i can fall aslp today... =)feel so much better.. hahz.. i can finally change song le.. been repeat listening to "down" ever since just now when i started writing this blog.. lOlx...now must listen more happening song liaoz.. LOlx..!! "So Yesterday!!" nice song.. =)bye.. i go slp le.. hahaz.. =P
End of my melody... @ 1:25 AM
